A thought

With the posts from everyone flying around in Singapore talking about the passing of actor Aloysius Pang, I can't help but to feel a little sad for all that been said. Well fought, man, well fought...

But with his passing, I can't help but to look back in my days as a NSF, and now thinking about it makes that old scar itch up again... Trust me, it's a pain I won't be rid of for a long time... And now that the thought's cemented, I can't help but to take a sigh for the sanctity of life, and the fragility of life as well...

Over the last few years, I have heard of NSFs and NSmen dying, whilst serving their supposed duties to this country. While I myself am considered lucky by all accounts, the fact still remains that we have lost a couple of them due to various accounts of mismanagement, lack of understanding to the situation and many others. This shit really needs to be stopped. Just how is the Army, the organisation in which our country's defense and safety heavily relies upon, can be so... lacking? I know, I've been through with the army, therefore my thoughts should be with them, trying to alleviate the situation. Yet however, I can't really find a reason to defend this wave of "murders". It chills me to the bone to think that, given the fragility of life itself, we are losing people in the name of "defending our country". Yes, I know we did say to defend this country "with my life!!",  to quote, but are we seriously losing people before any war has even started? Though I will defend with this statement: There has been no word back from the army, so we cannot pin the blame fully on the army itself.

But back on topic, I can't help but to see now, thru his death, how fragile life is... And the sadness that is on all my social media is nothing less than delectable. The bitterness, sourness, anger, and upset all mixing into nothing short of a terrible mix of a concoction of death and despair. And while I do admit my only time ever seeing him was through the movies and TV, I can understand as a fellow brother in arms, being that we both served NS and paid, now, in some form.

To conclude, this passing of an actor has now made me so much more understanding of not only the sanctity of life and together, it's fragility, but also to see how much impact I may make and can make, following this path that I walk. I don't know if I'll ever be able to reach that deep and far to make an impact among others, but I duly hope so... RIP, you've fought well for the last four days.

P.S. My thoughts also go out to his family and his girlfriend, whom I saw her various posts and comments on social media.