The lonely me inside...

Yes, I'm a lonely fella, and yes, I envy couples, especially those whom I know, and really, it kinda hurts when you realized that people around you are finding the love of their lives... Not saying I don't have anyone I like currently, but seriously, that is mainly Sora herself... Whenever I think about it, really, It doesn't help that I'm not the best looking, nor the most smartest, and really, unlike my gaming side, I've got no "aces" up my sleeves to chase after girls, so sometimes, I can really get lonely when being alone... and worse yet, I know, sooner or later, my friends will have to stop listening to me ranting since they themselves will have girlfriends/boyfriends to deal with, so yeah, it can be quite annoying and upsetting when you are alone and trying to live with a facade. Sounds familiar?? Yes, 'cause its the truth for most gamers as I'm 1 myself... and really, it sucks when you are nice to most people of the opposite sex, to only know that they like guys who are in most cases, in 1 way or another, better than you, and you realized that the reason is that you are being "friend-zoned" by her... Sigh, its really a goddamn issue since I do wanna feel a little love, and when you reached this age, you realize that it kinda is getting hard for people to love you when you know pretty darn well that you don't want to be loved for who the hell you aren't!! I mean, I know my parents still love me,(though I'm still pissed with them for all the crap they brought upon me!!) but you will eventually realize the love is more different than when you were still adorable and cuddly, therefore, I do feel somewhat a void within me, like I wished to find someone who would shower attention to me and at the same time, someone I would also like to shower attention to...
Yeah, I know I'm ranting again, so please bear with me, guess this is how people feel when they get too lonely, and when you realize the side effects of being a lone wolf is nothing much more than the tip of a iceberg. So thanks for hearing me rant again people, and till next time... adieu, amigos!!
Ian