Reason why I always have 'FML' at the back of my name...

People may have taken this for a joke that I always add 'FML' to the back of my name, but the name is the truth, I HATE MY LIFE!! My parents keep on saying I bring no end of troubles to the family, but really, do they really think I like to bring trouble to the doorstep of our home?? I have many things, done and undone, and those are worth my time more than bringing trouble to the family anytime!! I'm 18 already, for crying out loud, not 1 year 8 months old!! I'm more sick of troubles that the family suffers than anyone else, and I'm sick of being blamed for all the crap that I currently get scolded for!! "lousy brother", "useless bum", "handicapped in the brain", these are just the damn tip of the iceberg I carry on my shoulders, and no one even knows I carry these on my fucking back!! Many people would say I'm still young and immature, so I won't understand the pains of being an adult, blah blah blah, TO HELL WITH THAT NONSENSE!! Like I already said, I'M FREAKING 18!! Technically, I'm of legal age to make decisions myself and as far as I know, I'm making decisions with my BRAINS, not with my HEART!! Parents, PLEASE learn that as your children, no kid likes to make trouble for their parents, even less say take joy in doing so!! Back to the point, my parents say I don't earn money for the family, and yet I spend more?? WHO WERE THE IDIOTS THAT MADE ME FEEL LIKE NOT WORKING DURING THE HOLS?? Can't they seem to realize the fact that I'm more affected by the their words than my brother?? Cause I care more about them!! It's tough to hate, but tougher to love and respect the people you hate!! Seriously, I'm rather tired of dealing with all the nonsense that they speak of, but the truth is that I still have to deal with it!! Worse still, they say I'm the worst example of a brother to my younger brother, but hasn't they realized that if I was the goody-two-shoes that they love so much, then my bro will be the one suffering!! I may have no one to rely on, but my bro will always have me!! If I made his path so smooth till the point that he could ice-skate on it, then when he goes out, he will suffer!! By the way, they say I'm always teaching him all the wrong things, like cards instead of books, but it's because he's good in his studies that I see no need to teach him anything else!! Why should I teach a fisherman how to fish if he does it for a living?? Why the heck would you teach an engineer all about engineering if he knows everything?? There explains how much he knows and more than me!! Than what do you expect me to teach him?? Lastly, if I am the bad brother that they say so, REALLY, I would have told him to go and beat people for no reason, be rude to any teacher, be an ass to everyone he meets, and the last part, ask him to go and do vices and say it the correct thing to!! ARGH!! I'm fed up and tired!! Why can't they see that I'm already better than most brothers compared!! And for the record, I DON'T DO ANY OF THE VICES!! (That includes drinking alcohol, though technically I'm of legal age and it isn't a crime to do so!!)  And seriously, the more they say, the more I get pissed!! I'm really pissed by the fact they never seem to see that they are the ones always affecting my decisions, and you know what!? I'm not going to care anymore!! I'm just going heck care!! See y'all soon, thanks for hearing me rant...